♥Everytime you think of me, i hope your heart dies♥

SPENCER'S POV

as soon as my alarm went off i jumped outa bed and got ready and literally raced to school, i almost got pulled over ok i did get pulled over and yet again i got another speeding ticket but that wasnt important i needed to know if ryan is ok, anyway so once i got there i parked on the side and waited until i saw ryan but sadly i didnt, it was almost time for homeroom and he wasnt at home, usually he would of been here by now, actually he would be here before me fuck now im really worried, all the possiblites started running thought my mind until the warning bell rang so i quickly  parked my car and raced to homeroom, and of sadly ryan didnt show up either.....now i really started to worry, but finally he arrived, well during 4th period thank god but my smile soon faded when he came limping into Mr. Hills class and he also had his head down, and what really worried me is that he sat in the back of the class and didnt even bother about looking up he just sat there with his head still down, i looked at brendon and he flashed me a confused and worried look....shit

RYAN'S POV

i woke up in so much pain, i dont think i could even walk, well i could but it hurt so much, my dad refused to drop me off until he got home from work, but then i could tell he felt bad that he called my aunt to come pick me up and drop me off at schoo cause he actually didnt want me to walk to school and he said i could stay the night at spencers if i wanted, He then gave me $70 and then left for work, and i waited for my aunt and she's always late and didnt show up until 11am. So when i finally got to school i limped into the office and got my note and then i limped into class and handed Mr.Hill my note saying why i was late and  i kept my head down and limped to the back of the classromm...i didnt want brendon or spencer to see my face and i knew that if i sat by them they'd bug me and we'd get into trouble and then my dad would literally kill me this time, Now spencer knows a little bit about my problem but not alot, and brendon dosnt know about it at all of course and i'd like to keep it that way, so all i have to do is avoid them the whole day and i'll be fine, but then again if i spend the night at spencers then ill have to face spencer.....awwwwww fuck

eventually the bell rang and brendon and spencer hurried outside, but i could tell they were outside the door, so i just got up slowly and made my way over to Mr.Hill

ryan: Uh Mr. hill i just wanted you to know that im terribly sorry for passing inerpropreate note, i've learned my lesson, and i wanted to let you know that i got punished for it and agian im sorry

Mr.Hills: well thank you mister ross for the apology i accept, your a very bright kid and id like to see you use it instead of wasting it on passing profanity around ok!

ryan: *smiles weakly* thank you sir and i will, ummmm can i have a pass to class
Mr.Hills: yep *writes pass and hands it to ryan* here you go
ryan: thank you

i sliped out into the empty halls and went to the bathroom and i pushed my hair outa my face, and my lips and eye were bleeding again, so i got a paper towle and gingerly began to wipe the blood off and just my luck brendon and spencer walked in, i fliped my hair in my face and tried to go run into the stall but spencer caught me and pushed my against the wall softly then  pushed the hair outa my face and gasped when he saw my face, then he backed away slowly. i looked down and the tears started to fall, shit great now i really have to show them, so i slowly and carefully lifted my shirt up and they both gasped

brendon: im so sorry ryan, i this is all my fault if i wouldnt of kissed you, your dad wouldnt of done this
ryan: yes he would of brendon it's not your fault it's not either of your guys fault it's mine, i was born i exsist...if i wasnt here my dad would be happy, and my mom would still be here.

spencer: dont say that ryan, if you werent here our lives would suck, and everyone would be lil emo's
ryan: can i stay the night with you? my dad said im aloud to
spencer: of course you dont even have to ask
ryan: *smiles* well we should all get to class
spencer: ok....
brendon: ill be right there
ryan: ummmmm spencer ill catch up with you later  
spencer: ok
brendon: so
ryan: whats wrong
brendon: nothing, im-im just worried about you
ryan: why, im fine
brendon: your dad beats you ryan, thats not ok....he could really hurt you and then you'd be gone
ryan: you know what you and spencer just need to fuck off and leave me alone
brendon: we care about you
ryan: YOU just met me, so why would you care about me
brendon: i worry cause, i like you ryan, and im sad that your getting hurt you dont deserve it
ryan: *starts to cry* yes i do, im bad and i deserve everything he dose to me
brendon: NO no no thats not right, he wants you think that *pulls ryan into hug* you deserve to have a good father who wont hurt you. and who will love you for who you are!

ryan: brendon im scarred, last night he went way too far, he actually threw me down the stairs and beat me more than he usually does....i dont know what to do?

brendon: it's ok me and spencer are here for you
ryan: *looks up at brendon* thanks
brendon: *smiles* ya.....*kisses ryan* come  on lets go to lunch
ryan: ok